Thoughts for the day

A cocktail of emotions and life update

Mixed emotions- It’s okay to feel lost sometimes, you just need to find the strength to get back onto your path!

I’m writing this as I’m on the way to the airport in Bangkok, I’m trying to hold back the tears as I’m about to leave the country I love so much.
I’m not even an emotional person but I have had a cocktail of emotions in these past few days.

My anxiety- My anxiety has been all over the place this summer. From extremely bad around exams and mocks to much better in the summer term. My anxiety was stable at the start of the holidays with work experience and time spent with friends. It has been mostly good on holiday except for when I’m around crowds at airports, around traffic or thinking about year 13. Also some rude people pushing into me in airports doesn’t help either..

 

My snake experiences on holiday (this also links to my anxiety). I can actually say I am petrified of snakes, I have been for as long as I can remember. Living in the uk you don’t come to contact much with snakes except in zoos but even then you can stay away from them.
Firstly, I was minding my own business in an ‘animal show’ when 2 snakes were brought up close behind me, this gave me and my anxiety the shock of our lives.

Worst of all however was when I was minding my own business near a beach and the biggest Python I have ever seen in my life was brought up behind me. A smiling Balinese man asked me if I wanted it around my neck and I had to run of I was so very scared. Also, a particularly rude man laughed at me during this experience which isn’t nice or particularly helpful…

However this is not the case abroad!
I adore Thailand but no matter how many times I go to a snake farm, I am not any less scared of snakes. I went to a snake farm on results day (I did well on my results but I am also having some remarks), this helped to take the edge of results day! I managed to stay away from snakes mostly. I stood at the back of the seats during a snake show despite my over enthusiastic sister having a python put on her neck at least 3 times.. I also found looking around the museum aspect quite interesting, even if I can’t stand the sight of living snakes!!

 

The end of my holiday makes me very very upset as I am going back to reality and the prospect of year 13 but all good things don’t last forever. I’m excited to see my friends, less excited to do school work but I want to be prepared for year 13. I have had such a wonderful time travelling in Bangkok, Singapore and Bali. I have met so many kind hearted locals, eaten some amazing food, seen some wonderful sun sets, put aside my worries about school and I’ve felt so much more self confident. Confidence is a journey and I still can be a shy person but I’m starting to realise that isn’t a bad thing, sometimes it’s nice to put more thought into what you say:)

 

School! I am happy with how I did this year. I have changed and grown so so much as a person: both in my academic capabilities, my ability in dealing with friendship troubles, as a person and with my anxiety. I have made some real progress with my anxiety, I do have some occasional tough days but you have to get through them with a pinch of salt! I found this year so very challenging and after mocks in March I felt so lost but I managed to find my way with the help of my family, some new, old friends and some wonderful teachers. I am happy with the grades I got at the end of year 12!
I’m scared for year 13 but also I am ready for school to be over! I am ready for the challenges of university and also all university has to offer!

I am also going to be doing more yoga and meditation this year to help with the stresses of a levels. If anyone wants to start it too, we can go on this journey together.

I hope everyone enjoys there last few weeks of summer!! Let me know what posts you guys want to see🌸
Sending good vibes always, Larissa xo

 

Lifestyle

My very simple summer makeup routine

My summer basic make up routine- 19th August

 

I hope everyone got the results they wanted on results day and if not, please understand that sometimes it’s for the best and leads to amazing opportunities you had never previously thought about.

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I just want to start this post of with saying that I believe makeup should enhance your natural features rather than creating an entirely new canvas, you should still be able to see individual parts of the person underneath.I also think you should always wear makeup for you and not to please anyone else, you will not enjoy spending ages putting on makeup for someone else if it is not what you want!!

I don’t have the patience to spend ages doing makeup and so I very rarely wear face makeup, I usually use highlighter and eye shadow but this is for a day when I’m wearing a bit more makeup🌻

Liz Earle cleanse and polish is very good at removing any makeup or grime of your skin, leaving it feeling very nourished.

I also use L’occitane cleansers, I choose between different ones!

Simple moisturiser is a good everyday moisturiser and reasonable too!

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I sometimes use L’oreal Paris glam nude BB cream which gives quite a light coverage on the skin and makes it look very float.
And the Rimmel stay matte powder in the shade translucent (a classic)to make my face more matte.

Palettes I have been obsessed with this summer! Oh and I’m sorry if some of powders on my palettes have spilt as I have been travelling a lot with them recently.

This beautiful Tarte brush makes it so so easy to use eyeshadow to get the perfect cat eye flick!

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Lime crime Venus palette-I usually use the shades aura then shell with Venus on my outer corner! I usually use icon or muse for my cat eye flick.

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My most used shades! Oh and can we just take a moment to appreciate how stunning it is!
Or naked 3 palette- I will usually start with strange as a base colour before moving onto buzz with nooner on the outer corner. I will then mix factory and mugshot, putting that on the outside corner too, I will use muse from the lime crime palette for my eyeliner.

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Mascara(Tarte lights, camera, lashes) occasionally I use mascara for some volume.

Highlighter (my favourite part)- glow it up!
I have recently become obsessed with the Tarte skin twinkle volume II highlighter palette! I highlight on my brow bone, cheek bones, inner corners of my eye and as an eyeshadow base. I use the shade skylight and sometimes daylight.

Lipgloss/lipstick– Clinique chubby stick shade which is very moisturising!!!
Or Mac lipstick in the shade chubby which is a lovely light pink colour.

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I’m new to the while swatching dilemma so bare with me!

That’s it! I don’t use much makeup in general as I don’t like to wear it, I only like to enhance my natural features. Let me know your most used beauty products below for summer or in general✨⭐️ I wear even less makeup to school, usually just eyeshadow/eyeliner and lipstick!

I hope everyone is enjoying their summer, sending positive vibes to you all💘🕊✨ Let me know what your summer makeup essentials are in the comments!

p.s. let me know if you guys are interested in me doing posts on my travels around Asia etc this summer? Or let me know if you would like to see any other posts!!

If you guys want to keep up to date with me a bit more or contact me more easily, you can find me on Twitter @Lifeoflarissa ⭐️⭐️
Larissa xo

Academics

Results day survival guide

16th August Results day survival guide!📚
17th August- a level results day
24th August- GCSE results day

This is a photo from the day before results day last year. P.s. Sorry if it’s a little blurry but I thought I was an indie year 11…

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I thought it was appropriate to post this the day before a level results day to help some people who might be feeling very anxious!

 

Make sure you get some sleep even if you are on a sleepover or stay up watching films and tv shows.
Make sure you have a filling breakfast in the morning as it helps to soothe your nerves. Bring a snack with you to school if you want, preferably a heathy snack such as an apple or a fruit bar.

Don’t rush opening your results. Don’t let anyone pressurise you, open it on your own time! If you have anxiety like me, you might want to open them in a quiet area of school or even outside, if your school has a nice outside area. Also, bringing a bottle of water will help to calm you down before opening your results.

Bring family with you, (if you are close to your family). This was so so important for me as most of my friends were away last year. It was important for me so I didn’t get too stressed. My brother and sister running around my school hall helped to bring results into perspective! If your friends are around tho, they can be very supportive on occasions like this!

Don’t worry if you don’t feel like being in photos on results day, it isn’t a happy day for everyone but you have to put your results in perspective. If you are happy with your results thought go for it, be proud of yourself!! Also, try not to compare yourself to anyone else as you are an individual with your own strengths and weaknesses.

Don’t be afraid to ask teachers for advice on your next steps. Also, don’t be afraid to change plans based of your grades.

Get a remark if you didn’t get the grades you wanted to or grades which aren’t in line with what you had been getting in mock exams. I gained marks in all the papers I got remarked, including 6 marks in history! Remarks are not that expensive when you are thinking about your future plus you get your money back if you go up grades in the remark!

Ask school or college if you can do the a levels of course you want to or change your plans.

Give yourself a treat to look forward to after you have got your results. I went out for pancakes with my family and then out shopping which was really really lovely. Or even a treat in the next few weeks such as going to Leeds festival perhaps.

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Please don’t worry if you didn’t get the grades you wanted but still did OK, don’t worry! You change so much between year 11 and 13, I know lots of people who have improved so much in their abilities! Taking subjects in 10 subjects is very demanding! , it’s very difficult to be good at 10 subjects!

If you guys are getting As/ a level results your results may allow you to go on avenues you never thought about such as apprenticeships or different universities!
It doesn’t have to define your future if you have worked hard and continue to work hard through year 12. Look forward to the future!! Your results are what you make of them at the end of the day!

A short disclaimer that these are tips I think would be helpful for someone to know before results day but obviously everyone is different with different routines suiting different people better. Let me know how results day goes for you guys and if you do anything fun afterwards!! 🌻 If anyone wants to talk to me about anything to do with school results, I’m always here for a chat!

P.s. Let me know if you would like any more specific school related posts! I was thinking of doing a post on year 12 and my future plans for university? Let me know if you guys want to see any more specific school related posts📚

Good luck to everyone getting their results and I hope this post was helpful:)
I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their summer. Sending good vibes always,
Larissa 💘✨🕊

Lifestyle

My Liebster award

 

Liebster award 🌻 Thanks to Fanni http://fanniszalczgruber.wordpress.com/, April http://travellingwanderer.com/
Elise http://www.eliseetamsinn.wordpress.com/
and Liv http://livsmithblog.wordpress.com/
for nominating me, follow their wonderful blogs too 💟 I have done a mashup of the different tag questions🌻

The Liebster award is a blogger based award which follows similar principles to a chain letter, with it being passed on to others. The word Liebster has German origins with it being translated as dearest, sweetest, kindest, nicest, beloved, kind and so I think it is a nice post to be able to spread to get to know people better! It does have basic rules but you can also change it to your hearts content! Here are my answers:

 

1. Tell us about your blog, and what inspired you to start it? I wanted to start it as a way to express my thoughts and feelings in a more creative way. I find it helps my anxiety to write down my thoughts in a journal (more personal thoughts) and now in my blog.

2. If there’s a takeaway you want visitors to leave your blog with, what is it?
I want them to be left with sometimes an educational message or leaving them with topics to think about, or even just enjoyment from a lighthearted post.

3) How do you create new content, when it seems like everything has already been done?
I have a big list of blog post ideas actually but I would say to read other posts to get inspiration and maybe read the newspaper/magazines too. There will always be something new to write about, you just need the inspiration!

4) What is the biggest advantage of being a blogger? I haven’t had my blog for log but I would say having an outlet for your thoughts, being able to post things that interest you and that you love. Also, the blogging community who are all so kind.

5) How did you pick your blog name?
I wanted to start my blog to write about some of my life and what interests me, Lifeoflarissa seemed appropriate 😊 I also quite liked the alliteration within the name!

6) If you could have dinner with 6 celebrities who would they be and why?
Tom Hiddleston- he is very funny, smart and interesting plus a great dancer.
James Norton- He is very smart and interesting plus he did theology at Cambridge which I’m very interested in.
Jennifer Lawrence is a great actress, very funny with some great stories to tell I’m sure.
Taylor Swift is a very interesting person with a great voice.
Natalie Portman is very smart and interesting too.
Will smith- Firstly, he is will smith and so iconic in his own right but secondly he is hilarious, a very talented actor with so many great stories to tell and he seems like a genuinely lovely guy.

7) What is your all time favourite dessert?
Mango and sticky rice from Thailand. I also love Victoria sponge cake and chocolate cake.

 

8) If you could live anywhere in the world who would it be and why?
This isn’t difficult for me!
Thailand is my favourite place in the world: the people are so friendly and welcoming, the food is amazing and so reasonable, the culture is so beautiful and there is always somewhere new to explore. Let me know if anyone would like a post about Thailand in general!!
Singapore- it’s a very clean and beautiful place. English is very widely spoken in Singapore and so it could be a possibility to live there for a short while!

9)What is your favourite animal and why?

Probably a panda. I relate to them quite a lot as they seem to be quite chill animals who like to lounge around quite a bit, they are also very cute but also stronger than they look!

10) What do you want to accomplish in this life? To have a comfortable, happy life and to be a successful lawyer! I also want to have a happy marriage and have children when the time is right. I would also like to grow my blog more in the not so distant future, spread positive messages and help others with their mental health too. As well as doing more charity work as I find it very rewarding. I also want to regulate my own mental health in the future too.
I would also like to have travelled to more places such as the Acropolis as I have studied it in classics, Rome too for the history, Russia as I’m obsessed with Russian history (do you sense a theme?) and Mexico to visit one of my friends 😊 Also, to spend more time in Asia as it is my favourite place in the world ⭐️

11) What are you reading right now?
I am currently reading Sense and Sensibility, I do like it but I like Emma more I think. Emma is just so clever with such well rounded characters. Sense and sensibility is also very good, it has a variety of characters and has some of Austens’ typical wit.
I am also reading lots of books on the Holocaust for my history coursework, I have many other books to read for school too!

12) 12 questions oops!!
Would you explore the deep-sea or outer space? Outer space, I have always been fascinated with outer space since I visited NASA when I was younger and met a real life astronaut! It would be so wonderful to see the world from outside and to experience outer space itself ⭐️I am also not a big fan of deep deep sea, I have been chased by jelly fish in the past on boat trips and so I’m very cautious.

Where (if applicable ) can readers find you on social media?
Twitter-Lifeoflarissa
Pinterest- Lifeoflarissa
Email-Larissa223@icloud.com

 

I will also be nominating some lovely people with very interesting blogs 🌻🌸

Elm- has already done it but follow her anyways, she is wonderful! http://justelm.wordpress.com/

Franzi – http://franzizzy.blogspot.de/

Gee- http://thelifeofgee.com/

L- https://lifeofblind.wordpress.com/

Hannah- https://itsactuallyhan.wordpress.com/

Ocean- http://thelifeofocean.wordpress.com/

Jennifer -http://jenngrieveblog.wordpress.com/

Amanda- https://thelightowl.com

Shannon- http://goingwithhappy.com/

Kirsty- http://kirstyisabella.com/

 

The questions I used and the questions for my nominees!!

1. Tell us about your blog, and what inspired you to start it?

 

2) If there’s a takeaway you want visitors to leave your blog with, what is it?

3) How do you create new content, when it seems like everything has already been done?

4) What is the biggest advantage of being a blogger?

5) How did you pick your blog name?

6) If you could have dinner with 5 celebrities who would they be and why?

7) What is your all time favourite dessert?

8) If you could live anywhere in the world who would it be and why?

9) What is your favourite animal and why?

 

10) What do you want to accomplish in this life?

11) What are you reading right now?

12) Would you explore the deep-sea or outer space?

Thank you all for reading, sending you positive vibes as always 🌻🌸Larissa xo

 

 

Thoughts for the day

Thoughts for the day- Reflections on Charlie Gard case

Thoughts of the day- the powers of the courts vs the rights of parents. 12th August
I may have previously mentioned that I want to study law at university and so I thought I could discuss the legal case of Charlie Gard.

 

This is inspired by the incredibly sad case of Charlie Gard who recently died after courts including the court of appeal and European court of human rights were unwilling to help Charlie go to America for experimental treatment. Charlie had a very rare disease called infantile onset encephalomyopathy mitochondrial DNA depletion syndrome (MDDS) which causes progressive muscle weakness and brain damage.

Charlie’s parents wanted to take him to America to see specialists offering experiential therapy called nucleoside with a crowdfunding page being set up to fund it. Charlie’s parents raised the money but were could not go because of the courts. The courts tried to use the argument of Charlie having a low quality of life which might be true but they left him for a long period of time without the treatment which could have helped him.

The law

The powers of the parents over their children

The 1989 children act was pioneering in changing the legal relationship between parents and their children. It no longer concentrated on centrally the rights of the parents but also their responsibilities to the child. Responsibilities include looking after the well being of the child which Charlie’s parents tried to do. Also deciding whether to consent to medical treatment or not which Charlie’s parents were not allowed to do because of the courts. Thanks to the children’s act, there is a large checklist the courts have to discuss to make sure they are making the right decision for the child.

1998 human rights act which states that all people (even under 18) have the right to be protected from inhumane treatment. Although Charlie’s parents were trying to protect him from further suffering through the experimental treatment, the courts tried to argue that the treatment would not improve his quality of life and he would continue to have a low quality of life.

 

However, Charlie’s parents should have been given more control over his future, they clearly cared incredibly about him; they had done the research to find out about the experimental treatment. The doctors themselves didn’t know what the experimental treatment could have achieved. The long legal battle itself meant that Charlie’s condition deteriorated so much he couldn’t have the treatment anyway.

The powers of the courts.

In some cases children’s care is given to local authorities if the parents are not caring for them properly, however Charlie’s parents were trying to care for him properly, the courts disagreed with their course of action. The parents should have the right to help their children if they are not harming them surely, as the child cannot give consent it should be the parents who make the decision.
In some ways the court is not the right setting for such a personal matter, the fact that the case was played out in the media made it all the more heartbreaking.

The courts believed that there was a low chance of the experimental treatment working and so they could not take him to America, even the European court of human rights agreed with this decision. Charlie was born on the 4th August 2016 died on the 28th July 2017, I hope Charlie rests in peace and his parents can be supported through a heart breaking time.

 

If anyone would like to discuss this case in the comments or even with me personally feel free. I think this is a very upsetting case which needs to raise awareness of various issues. Sending everyone good vibes 🕊⭐️
Also, let me know if you guys would like a results day ‘survival guide’ on the 16th? 💭🕊 new posts on Wednesdays and Saturdays for the rest of August ✨
Larissa xo

Thoughts for the day

Dear kitty..

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Body confidence

 

This is the first post from my Dear Kitty series. I will be giving advice on certain issues as if to help my younger sister. (I have a twin brother and sister who are 9 if anyone was wondering).

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Dear kitty,

I thought I would make this post about body confidence as it is something I have struggled with for many years. Kitty is blessed with a naturally skinny figure but is starting to feel more conscious about her appearance and so I thought I would write this post. I feel like I am in quite a good place to talk about it as I am happy with my weight as a result of my healthy diet and exercise plan.

 

I never had much of a problem with weight as a child. I never thought I was fat and ate what I wanted to. I think that growing up predominantly away from social media meant that in my early childhood I didn’t pay much attention to my weight. If you read my anxiety post you will know I did get bullied early on but not for my weight until high school.

When I am content with my friends and position in school, I have very good eating habits etc. However, when I am not content with life it becomes difficult for me to maintain my diet, sometimes I eat too much and sometimes too little. I started to get bullied for my weight in year 7 of high school, I was not fat at this point but a healthy weight but girls can be nasty and hence lots of rumours were spread about me. I also had a tough time with friends at this school too, I was not content and so my eating habits were not good at all. I was not body confident at all. I remember going on holiday to Florida, I felt so ashamed of my body I wouldn’t wear a bikini on an empty beach in case someone saw me. Looking back on photos, I was a healthy weight I just couldn’t see it because of people at school.

I then moved school at the end of year 8. It was for a variety of reasons, some of which were mentioned in my anxiety post. I understand this is not an option for everyone but luckily it was for me and it was a godsend to escape such a toxic environment! This was a very very healthy decision for me. It took me from an environment where everything was scrutinised to a more happy environment with people of different shapes and sizes, as it should be. I took a while to sew back the seeds of self confidence but it slowly came back to me.

I started to regulate my diet more!! I have not eaten gluten, dairy or wheat since the age of 12 but I also started to eat more healthily in general, as I cared about being healthy for me not because of what others thought of me. This is the best reason to do it, as I have stuck with it for around 4 years so far.

Exercise:
I also started rowing and doing cardio exercises at home. I started doing exercise because it made me feel good, gave me more energy and helped me to create new experiences with friends.

Here is a top tip, if you hate exercise by yourself at home, put a film or YouTube video on in the background to make it less torturous!!
As well as swimming more, which I have always loved! I find it so relaxing; a way to be alone with my thoughts. It is so helpful to discover what to do next or figure out situations.

I also want to stress that you shouldn’t do exercise to please anyone else, it should always be for yourself! Don’t try and please a guy who probably won’t be around in 6 months. You should do exercise because you want to do it!

Don’t compare your bodies to models and others on Instagram!! This is not healthy at all and although it is easier said than done you shouldn’t do it. Quite often models have teams of dieticians and personal trainers to keep them looking slim as well as photographers to make them look very skinny in photos. You shouldn’t compare yourself to people in Instagram posts as they couldn’t also be photoshopped, you are not always seeing the real person.

I am going into year 13 when writing this post, I am confident in wearing what I like as I know what suits me and my body type, most days. I do get my anxious days where I do concentrate on what others think but I am usually much better. You need to realise what body type you have and dress in ways which compliment it as at the end of the day everyone is different which is gives the world a wonderful variety. If you are comfortable with yourself you should be able to wear what you want: from long dresses to short skirts, you should be comfortable in what you like wearing.

I want to stress that I am not 100% body confident. I will never be an Instagram like model who poses with a sultry like expression on their face; besides I like to think of myself as a happy person. However I am happy with my appearance, I can wear a bikini on the beach and I don’t care what others think as I just want to concentrate on myself and my journey. Sometimes my thighs look quite prominent in photos but I don’t care as much anymore, as it is my body and I know I am being healthy. I never want anyone (especially not my sister or brother) to be ashamed of parts of their body because they ‘aren’t skinny enough’, it isn’t right.

Let me know if you guys like this kind of blog post you like reading and what else you would like to see! I’m enjoying writing blog posts with both a story and an advice aspect on topical issues for women such as body images!! I am also slowly working on a post about how I control my anxiety, let me know if this is something you guys would be interested in?

Sending you guys positive vibes and I hope you all enjoy the rest of your summer 🌙✨🕊 p.s. you may find a bonus post or two from me besides the 2 posts a week for summer!! I hope you all enjoy them 🌙 Larissa xox

Mental health · Uncategorized

My anxiety story…so far

cropped-image1.jpegCauses of my anxiety- 9th August

 

Although it is hard to pin point a beginning of your anxiety, I believe certain experiences have made me more anxious.

To start of with I would like to say I think my parents both have anxiety in some form, I think in my case it was passed on hereditarily. As I was a shy child though, bullying also made me much more anxious from a very young age.
As I was a shy child I was targeted by bullies who were louder than me and tried to taunt me for being shy and kind natured, including making up lies about me, (young kids can be vicious you know). This didn’t help my personality, it made me much more quiet and less confident in my self. I couldn’t go to school, I cried in the cloakroom to my mother as I felt so scared of someone picking on me. I moved school after this which did help, I made some new friends and became friends with lots of boys.

Friendship troubles. I have met a huge variety of people so far in my life, if anyone needs advice on this I can help somewhat.
Anyway, I soon got into a friendship of 3 in my new school which was great for some time but it was clear one of the girls didn’t like me. The other girl who we were both friends with soon moved away and the group fell apart, ( I sometimes felt left out anyway so it was probably for the best).
This left me feeling very lonely, as I didn’t get along with many girls in the school. I began feeling more anxious, I wanted to stay in a woods area of the school and only spoke to a few people. I began being better friends with some boys in my year and one girl, things did pick up.

Now was time for high school. I moved schools again as my current school wasn’t pushing me academically enough. I went to a school which was fairly hard to get into and so I felt proud of myself and less anxious.
This school was ok for a while, I was in another friendship of 3 (oh dear) but soon I was left out. I began getting picked on for my weight, ( I was not fat just not naturally thin), my shyness and my fast walking (wtf really). This was one of the darkest moments of the my life, I rarely mention it even to friends these days. It was only a dark few months though. I had very few friends at school, I felt so anxious at school and home. I constantly had bad dreams at home and I could barely go through the school halls or talk in class without feeling anxious. I really couldn’t be myself. I felt like people hated me for my personality when really the majority of them were nasty people when I’m groups who couldn’t see the positive parts of my personality. I moved after year 8 as I couldn’t deal with the school anymore, even the gates of the school soon started resembling the gates of Hades in my unconscious mind. If any of you feel alone, please message me. Anytime!! I will try and help you ❤

I then moved to a girls school which is strange as I always thought I got along better with guys but there we go. I still go there now and I am going into year 13 in September. I have had some dark and amazing times there, I have made friends with some special people and some people who are not worth it. I was friends with some
people in other classes before getting into another friendship group of 3, when will I learn. It was originally 5 but then girls can be bitchy. We were friends for over a year which was wonderful, great; we had so many laughs in year 10 and it was one of the best years of my life.

However, the other two people soon fell out, leaving 2 in the friendship group with me having other friends in different groups too. I’m not friends with the other person currently as they are quite a self obsessed person who probably cared very little about me, who didn’t believe I had anxiety and who left me alone at parties. I’m not going to go too into this as I like to think onwards and upwards 😊
I only realised I actually had anxiety in year 11 as I had started watching mental health YouTube videos by people such as zoella.
If you would like a post on how I control my anxiety (sort of) then let me know.

I met a new group of girls in sixth form who are v lovely, things can improve in sixth form.
Hopefully, I will meet lots of new people at uni! I feel more confident than I have in myself for a long time but I still struggle with anxiety and depression. You do not improve overnight, always remember it can be a long road and that’s ok!!

Not being confident enough. Even at my second high school I struggled with this a lot, (mun has helped so much with this though). I never felt smart enough, pretty enough or popular enough but in hindsight none of this matters as long as you are trying your best and being yourself.
You have to adopt the attitude that if people don’t like you, it’s their loss not yours as they aren’t worth it.

 

Fears. I actually have lots of fears in general life which don’t help my anxiety.
Such as:

Snakes
Sharks
Heights
Small spaces
Public speaking on a stage
Crowds
Loosing friends
Failure

Although, my fear of public speaking isn’t too bad if it’s debating rather than giving a speech.

 

Exam stress does also aggravate my anxiety. I am not someone who really fears exams but they do stress me out during the revision process or even during exam season.

 

Lastly, I think my anxiety is also hereditary so the experiences I have mentioned probably aggravated the problem.

Also, let me know if you would like any more anxiety or mental health blogs? Or if you would be interested in more back to school blog posts? Sending good vibes, Larissa 💘⭐️

This post is in collaboration with Jade, she has a wonderful blog and you all should check it out! https://www.bloglovin.com/blogs/jade-millard-13929405